How do I get through this

Maybe it’s time to let everything be different. If I were giving advice to myself about all of this I’d tell me to let it all go and start over. 

I’m tired of people being tired of me

When your life has come to a complete stop and everyone else just keeps on living. Why is everyone else ok

Why dont they miss me too? Like I said, hate doesn’t hurt who you think it does

so full of hate and anger i vibrate

I need to remember this feeling. The wasted days taken off work that could’ve been put to better use. The ingratitude. The lack of respect. The inconsideration for your time. The entitlement. The selfishness. 

She can be a good person, but she is not a good person in your life. Never again will you reach out, make the effort, or inconvenience yourself for her ok? She is going to have to make amends. The most self-centered person on the planet is going to have to exert effort for someone else. Not everyone has to have a relationship with their family members and many people don’t. It’s wild to think 

The older you get, the more they fall short and the more it matters. The effects are permanent.  

trying to talk to my friends is hard, no one wants to talk about the real stuff.

feeling my feels is like a god damned betrayal of trust these days.

whatevskies:

sorry i couldn’t hear you over my internal monologue 

(Source: whatevskies-blog, via recoveryisbeautiful)